20 Something.. Is hard?

Just read a novel by Dewi Pravitasari. It is about life at 20 something is a hard life to be done. Quarter-life Crisis, it said between 21-29 y.o.

*Mikir* ………………. kayaknya gw lagi dalam tahap itu neh :p ihihi.. But, I feel so lucky that I can do anything I want that is quite positive *at least that is what I think*

Anyway, I feel blessed that I actually experienced many things in my 28 years-life yet 29 :p that probably not even my friends, close-friends could experience it. Though it was something dissapointing, sad, outrageous, shocking, but still, it was something precious. I have put my life in risks, probably until this second. But I do have no fear to live in those risks. I might fail somehow, but at least I should give it a try, so I will know what would be the results.

I have decided that I will close my past-book in Indonesia and try to gain a new chapter of life on the other side of the world. I don`t believe in missfortune, but I do believe in chance. There will always be many chances, but of course I will have to be sensitive enough to see it coming.


Next week on Tuesday is my birthday. Well, 29 year-old. Not bad, huh? hihihi.. I have been reviewing about my 28 year-old life these days. Hmmm... I am not a super smart person (If I were then at this age I could be professor or a nerd! haha), I am not a super beautiful woman (If I were then I could end up winning miss Universe! huahaha), I am not a super kind person (I mostly got devil inside rather than angel! hihihihi), I am not a super obedient daughter to my parents (mostly fight with my Dad about car, and Mom about small things. Huh..), I am not a super nice sister to my siblings (with my sister, absolutely! since she always asks some money from me! hahahahha *sorry Deboy* =p), I am not a super talented (too many talents make you stupid! =p), I am not a super bestfriend to my bestfriends and still so many "I am not". But I believe that I am super special to someone =) My parents love me, my bestfriends love me (or not?!?!?! huhuuhuhu) and my dog, Louie, loves me! hihihi..

Being 29 wanna-be is a bit scary =p just to be honest, even at this age I still don't know what I really want in life *pheuww*.. Sometimes I get lost when I'm down but I know when the day is over and come to the next day, I always find my strength again.

Knowing that all my close friends are getting married is really really terrify me! Whooaaaa! What the hell is this feeling anyway?? Why should I be scared? But I cannot avoid this feeling. One moment I can feel relax and don't really care about it, but then later I can feel so worry, terrify, even somehow feel a bit down. Is that a sign of life-crisis?? hmmm.. a quarter-life crisis. Arrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Hate it so muchhhh!!

Di novel tersebut dibilang kalau: umur 20-an bukan tentang “mencapai sesuatu” tetapi masih dalam tahap mencari, mengumpulkan, yang mana hasilnya baru dapat terlihat 10-15th ke depan. Well yeah, I agree with that..

Well, let's see what will happen next. Who knows that something great will happen to me soon! hihih.. *finger crossed* =D just need to be positive thinking and work hard and surviving! ;)

Oh and don't forget the most important thing above all: Pray =)

Enjoy being 20-something! ;)